1:04 AM

Loving you is the best thing I've ever felt. But at the same time painful. Why do I continue to fall for you so much knowing that we could never be together? Is it that your love is so captivating, it blooms into my soul like a flower rooted in its place. I cannot escape, nor do I want to.

Just thinking of you makes me smile! When I'm close to you with your loving arms around me, it makes me feel like heaven. Feeling as though a fairytale could exist between us.

I'd give anything to feel your love. Without you, I am empty. Lonely, unable to function, feeling as if I'm dying inside.

Back in your arms for awhile, my soul lives again, and learn the meaning of happiness. Never wanting to leave your side, I can see only you and nothing else. When I hold you, I only wish to hold you tighter.

From the moment I wake up. I think of you till I fall asleep at night. And even then, you are in my dreams. I know you love me, but you don't love me the way you really wanted to. I've fallen so deep for you that I'm willing to accept only having part of you, and not being able to have all of you.

Please don't tell me you love me from the start, if you don't really mean it. I would rather see you be with the other guys and be happy. Then having you next to me but someone else is holding your heart. I'm wondering what would hurt more? Being with you, or seeing you and knowing your heart belongs to another?

I love you. I hope one day I will find someone else who can love me more Than I Loved You. Because I can't stop loving you, am I destined to be without love?


( SnC.LordMaster ) -- to my first Love . . .